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Sunday, January 4, 2009 @ 3:56 PM
I suddenly got so tired from blogging down everything right here.
Something's going wrong.
Really wrong.
All wrong.
I Hate it for happening
and I really hated u for doing it.
As all things starts to go wrong at the beginning of a new year,
I seem to be awfully reluctant to admit defeat to fate.
He changed. As though he really did.
We talked, but words that came out were simply too plain.
I dislike it when he stares into my eyes.
When he take changes to seat beside me.
I hated it when we actually share similar objects.
I simply hated every part of him.
Just for the reason of hatred.
Or probably, no reason for the hatred I have for him.
I can't seem to forget.
Neither can I accept the fact of his apologies.
Apologies without sincerity can never be accepted.
Did he said let bygones be bygones?
What will you do when one you love so deeply hurt u so badly?
Bygones be bygones?
Or is it just a mere joke you are talking about?
Talking about forgiveness.
How does this word ever came across to him?
There seems to be totally no such word that ever been recorded in his dictionary.
The book of holiness that seems to record events of Selfishness,
Evilness, Proudness, Self Pitiness, Judgementalness... All and all of his nonsense.
God will judge him.
On one final day.
For all the deeds he have done.
Believing, that there will be a fair day ahead.
God is fair, and God won't allow the evil to sucummb to victory.
To Him And To Her,
May God Bless you all.
I'm turing upon deaf ears.
Filtering out all words he spoke.
Never meant to listen and never will.
Dearest him,
Please think of your actions.
Do a reflection.
You are old enough to decide between good and evil.
Look at yourself in the mirror.
God blessed you with the perfect features.
Why bother to do things to further uglify yourself?
Behavior, Words, Attitude, etc...
Is that all what you wanna become in future?
The evil one?
Is that the one, the only evil one that can exsist in you?
At the beginning,
When I ever got to know you,
Every part and everything of you fascinates me.
Be it your voice, your look, plainly, simply, your everything invites me in.
In... Into your heart.
Yet now, the nightmare beguns.
You changed.
Changed to someone no longer noticeable.
A total change person whom no one knows who you are.
Faith have shaken in you.
Words of unkindness comes out from you.
Actions of Childishness pours out from your hands.
Insanity seems to be drving you crazy.
Have all the lack of concern shook you?
Or have you admitted defeat to the evil side of you?
Just by judging at your actions and words,
You totally seem to have already place your feet into the evil grounds.
Why have I ever forsaken you?
Why have I ever even befriend you?
Everything. Everything of you hurts.
Hating you hurts more than anything.
Please.
Love one, change yourself.
Give yourself back to the one that created you.
You need him, real badly.
Look upon to the ones near you.
Your dearest ones that can release the kind soul inside you.
Look back.
Regret.
I need you back, my dearest friend.
I need to know you, once again.